Sunday, October 14, 2007

My Birthday

I will be 30 in three days. I remember turning 21 and thinking, "Wow, I feel so adult now", and getting married at 25, thinking "this is it, life is good". Life was so simple then. Now here I sit, 5 years later and reflect on my life. Two years ago, roughly to the day, started a journey that I thought would be long over by now. I am realizing it has just begun, and I have no idea where it will lead. I won't say that the past few years have been easy, because God might strike me down for lying. But I have learned a lot.

I have learned that life isn't always fair, and doesn't always go as planned. I have learned that it's ok to be sad sometimes, and it is ok to cry when you are. Really bad things can happen to really good people, and great things can happen to really bad people. It is also ok to laugh and be crazy with your friends - they love you anyways. I've learned that the "Wall of Chocolate" at P.F. Changs is worth every calorie and gram of fat in it. I learned it's ok to call your best friend and say "I need a Girls Night Out and a good Margarita" and they understand without a question, because sometimes it is their turn to call in the request. I learned that I can clean my house in any order that I choose, and the universe still remains. (Sorry Mom, but it's true. I love you though for all you have taught me). I have learned that finding a really great pair of shoes on sale really can change the entire mood of your day. I've learned that life isn't perfect- and that's what makes it life.

Sometimes I feel too wise for my years. I wish I didn't know so much about some of the things I do, but I do recognize that the knowledge I have from those experiences is what makes me who I am. I am who I am because of the road I traveled to get to this day. I am completely unique because of where I have traveled. Someone once told me that I was like a Snowflake, that there wasn't anyone elese quite like me. I like that. I don't know if the world could handle more than one.

1 comment:

schutfilz said...

I just wanted to officially be the first person to comment on your blog. Yippee!